Last night I promised you that we would watch a movie together. I believe my exact words were:”We can definitely do that honey.” When you picked me up from the train station I had every intention of curling up under a giant blanket and dozing off midway through a d-list movie with you – I did. Then, I came in and finished the dinner you started and just as the last pot hit the dishwasher the phone rang. You asked me if it would be a short call and what did I respond? “Definitely!”
An hour later I was still on the phone and you were beginning to nod off on the playoffs. I’d planned to wake you and tell you there was still time, but then I remembered that I promised my dad I’d do him a quick favor and call Verizon on his behalf, plus I still had some e-mail invitations to send out for my best friends big birthday party. Before I knew it your bed time had come and gone and you were sleeping peacefully on the couch as I sat there wallowing in my wife guilt.
Okay I admit it. Hi, my name is Charli, and I am a flake! But in my defense, you know who you married. I’m the person that chronically over-commits, can never say no to a friend, foolishly thinks she can actually do it all, and who no longer knows the difference between five minutes and fifty minutes. Yup, I’m that person. But please know that that person is so very sorry that sometimes in my efforts to do it all I forget to give you my all. You deserve that and I am more grateful than you could ever know. You didn’t even give me a hard time about it. Could you be any more awesome about the whole thing?
I can do better. I should do better. But until I am actually better at this whole love-live-work balance thing, always remember this: There’s a reason that whenever I’m typing too fast or writing too fast the one word I always misspell is “definitely”. That reason is that the only definite thing in my world right now is you, and the love we share! Movie tonight? It’s most likely, quite-possibly, something we can do. (Wink!) I love you!